I FEEL FUCKING ANGRY

Why do I seem so hostile these days?

I try my best to keep my cool amongst my friends. They do not deserve it. It usually doesn't surface unless something bothers me or I am in a unbalanced mood. Seriously wow. I find myself talking to myself about what bothers me.

Trapped beneath the confusion,
Cornered by association,
Everyone I love,
Everyone I care about,
Everytime I meet someone new,
They are all going to feel it one way or the other.

And people ask me,
Why am I so cold inside?
What am I afraid of?
Why am I so hostile?
What's wrong?
Each and every day I grow increasingly bitter, lose my cool.

So now what? Easy. When it came to forging relationships I never had my guard up. Never had trust issues. No. Not until I hit university and started meeting a charade of girls who had these qualities:

Incoherent self-projections
Selfishness beyond comprehension
Constant lies and deception
Conspiracy plotting
Slut-like behind the scenes behaviour

So what happened to me in the process?

I question everything people say.
I have trust issues.
I feel misogynistic spontaneously.
I laugh at people's problems when I find disagree.
I endorse my lesser talents like brutal honesty.
I mock anyone for any reason possible.

And that's me on a good day.

Thank you for all who have brought me to this position. I hope all your children are born retarded and burn you alive while you sleep. Bitches.